Five One

Da Goddess @ 21:24

Today I turned 51.

My exciting day has been full of thrills, the likes of which you’ve never seen. Well, you probably have, but I’m betting you wouldn’t wish to experience.

I got back my voice after a day of not having one, the consequence of some crazy ass sore throat of unbelievable intensity. My uvula was swollen and bumpy, as was the back of my tongue. The tongue bumps were large, scratchy, and raw, surrounded by hard patches. I’ve never had anything like this before and hope to never have again. I’m dousing my throat with chloraseptic spray, eating jello, drinking tea and water, and basically resting as much as possible, while also trying to keep my back pain to just under a roar.

This was on top of knowing my sister was dealing with my dad getting out of the hospital for the second time in three weeks due to congestive heart failure. It’s a new diagnosis for Dad and I know all too well what that means for him. He insists he feels fine in between hospital stays, but it’ll eventually get to the point where he’ll need more meds to help keep fluid from building up and he’ll become less comfortable more frequently.

Dad’s 86 now and even though I’m older, I don’t like the thought of losing him (or my mom, or any sisters) any time in the near future. I’m not ready for this.

So. Yeah, so. That’s how I’ve spent my birthday. Happy fucking birthday to me.


  1. Happy Birfday sweetie!

    Comment by Ravenwood — 2017/05/19 @ 05:28

  2. Thank you, sir!

    Where have you been hiding out?

    Comment by Da Goddess — 2017/05/19 @ 10:55

  3. Happy Birthday anyway. The passage of time sucks, but it’s even worse when we don’t feel good. :(

    Sorry to hear about your Dad.

    Comment by pam — 2017/05/19 @ 12:06

  4. ((Big Hugs)) And happy B~day to you. I totally feel for what you’re going through. I’ll be 50 this week, so I’m right behind you. Getting old can Suck It!!!!
    Cheers to a better new year of your life! ~xoxo

    Comment by DogsDontPurr — 2017/05/20 @ 17:16

  5. Still slaving away in Northern Virginia… working for the weekend!

    Hope all is well with you.

    Comment by Ravenwood — 2017/05/22 @ 11:46

  6. Thanks, Pam and Marcie!

    Ravenwood, you should stay in touch more frequently! I miss chatting it up with you. Also, just found a pic of us in Vegas after your friends got married. So long ago!

    Comment by Da Goddess — 2017/05/28 @ 17:45

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