Varied Thoughts

DaGoddess @ 05:23

So much going on right now and not everything is bueno. I can deal with that. I guess. I mean, I have to, don’t I? Yes, I do. We all do.

It’s annoying when things go haywire, but that’s all part of life. I try very hard, though, to keep my life at a relatively low level of chaos whenever possible. When things do go nutso, I just don’t like it. But I deal. That’s what I do.

There are others who know what I mean. I’m praying for friends both near and far as they struggle with situations that will require all their strength. They’ll pull through. I know they will. I have Faith. (And if they’re reading, they should know: I believe in you!)

I’ve received an inordinate amount of email asking why I didn’t recap Deadliest Catch this week. As I mentioned during last week’s recap, don’t expect a full play by play every week. This week was particularly crazy around here and the episode was too involved for me to do right by it. Perhaps next week… I just don’t know at this point. I do know that had everything gone right the last couple weeks, I’d currently be in Seattle at CatchCon in seven hours. It didn’t. I’m not. And that’s life.

It appears that what I thought was a bladder/kidney infection was part of my back surgery recovery process. I did feel a little “pop” in my back on Monday while I was drying off after pool therapy. That was very likely the cause. This shouldn’t have surprised me, but it did. It was simply panic time because of the fact that I’ve been without insurance for so long. Add to that the pressure of suddenly have NO money coming in again, and I escalated to full modified stationary panic. I spent quite a bit of time on the phone with the attorney’s office (no luck), Interfaith Emergency Services (no luck), and the Social Security people (no luck). Needless to say, I’m out of luck and out of ideas. I did consider selling off some body parts, but that’s a rather hard sell and the market, well, it takes more time than I have. Besides, what do I have that anyone would really want if it’s not attached to me? And turning tricks? That’s freakin’ laughable. Not much call for this body.

Trying to wrap my head around everything resulted in me being rather cranky off and on all week.

To top it all off, it’s calendar time. I wasn’t given a deadline, but it turned out to be the day before the deadline I’d issued to artists to have everything in. Now I’m working like crazy to get this damn thing done.

If you hear an extremely loud explosion, it’s my head.


  1. Working for oneself is always a risky thing, especially if the cashflow is erratic. Prayers are with you and let’s hope the “pop” was just something settling into its proper place.

    Comment by The Gray Monk — 2009/04/25 @ 06:30

  2. As always, praying for you. Where is the manna from Heaven that was promised? Or is that more of the intangible?


    Comment by Pam — 2009/04/25 @ 06:51

  3. :pirate: I’m prepared to fight as needed. :box:


    As Tom Petty said, “the waiting is the hardest part.”

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/04/25 @ 06:55

  4. I hope the pop was something that will resolve soon. Like magic! You’re much too young to have to deal with so many physical ailments. I’ll send thoughts and prayers for miraculous and overwhelming health. We need to hit the “reset” button on you!

    Comment by Chris — 2009/04/25 @ 07:12

  5. Reset button, good idea! Much better than rewind.

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/04/25 @ 12:55

  6. Erf! I totally empathize. Just know that you rock, girl! The rest will fall into place….hopefully, eventually. You’re in my prayers. ((hugs))

    Comment by DogsDontPurr — 2009/04/25 @ 21:56

  7. :grouphug: we’re all with ya joanie. As I’ve said before, life sucks – but we just keep on keepin on don’t we. You do it with considered grace.

    Comment by patti — 2009/04/26 @ 16:58

  8. Oh thank you. I do feel rather graceless when I whinge on the blog, but then I figure…this is what it’s here for…so my head really doesn’t explode.

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/04/26 @ 18:55

  9. Well, glad you don’t have an infection at least!

    Comment by rob sama — 2009/04/27 @ 07:29

  10. Or I could, but I don’t feel it anymore. We just pray there’s no infection.

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/04/27 @ 07:31

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