Sunshine Day
The sun has been out all day today and it was so very welcome after all that rain. Still a bit of a chill to the air, but that’s just fine by me.
My home health worker (turns out she’s not a nurse) took me to Walmart. We got a lot of little things I needed but couldn’t ask anyone else to get for me. Got a little food. Got two little (and I do mean little) presents for my daughter. I’ve now spent the same amount of money on both children (pathetic amount that it is) and I still feel like they’re getting bupkis. They kind of are. I feel bad. I mean, I know the whole point of Christmas isn’t really presents, but I’m a mom and I want to do more. Wish I could do more. I know they’ll understand, it’s just something I cringe inwardly over because I feel like I’m not living up to all my motherly duties if I don’t have more than one or two little gifts to give them. I mean, why should they suffer because the insurance company’s playing cheap? Arrgh!
Anyhow, back to the shopping trip. It took about an hour and a half, and by the time we got home and got the bags unloaded, our two hours were up. If it’s sunny again tomorrow, we’re going to the park and having a bit of a walk just for the sake of walking instead of for shopping.
It’s kind of nice to get out of the house and “do” something, even if it’s just running to the store. I’m starting to feel the walls close in around me if I’m stuck inside for too many days in a row. And that’s a good thing. Now, if only the doc would call me back and tell me my meds are ready for pick up.
Update: my day just got even better with a quick visit from LD. He stopped in to deliver a package from a pirate (a book, a video, a genie’s bottle — for wishing? No, for photographing — and food), to get his Gameboy, and give me two kisses. Yes, two. Am I lucky or what?
Wow, TWO kisses! What a lucky woman! :thumbs:
Take it from someone who grew up poor: some things matter more than material stuff. Hugs matter. Love and laughter is gold of the soul… Being together means a great deal.
Parents want to give their children everything, but sometimes they don’t realize they already have… :hug:
Comment by pam — 2008/12/16 @ 17:16
Yup, TWO kisses.
And I agree about the gifts. It really isn’t about the actual presents, but the love and the consistency and the rest. It’s just that I feel like I’m letting them down this year with the very limited budget I have.
Comment by DaGoddess — 2008/12/16 @ 17:24
You have great kids…and kids have a way of understanding way more than we want to give them credit for. I think yours know.
Comment by Mrs. Who — 2008/12/16 @ 17:57
Two kisses makes you, let’s see… add five carry the three… 200% wealthier than me. Pardon me whilst I go indulge in a little self-pity…
Comment by jan — 2008/12/16 @ 19:07
kisses? you rock. I wish we were closer- I would come over and get you OUT OF THAT HOUSE!!!! :toast:
Comment by vodkamom — 2008/12/17 @ 03:36
Good to hear you’re becoming more and more mobile.
Comment by Stu — 2008/12/17 @ 09:08
a little more here and there. Was hoping for a good walk today, but the damn rain ruined my plans. Oh well, maybe there’s room on the ark for me to take a good stroll.
53 degrees and lots of water. Tomorrow? Who knows?
Comment by DaGoddess — 2008/12/17 @ 16:02
I can’t say it any better than Pam: Parents want to give their children everything, but sometimes they don’t realize they already have…
There were years I got expensive gifts, but they meant nothing and brought no joy because it was miserable at home. Chin up, you’ve got so much good with each other.
Comment by GW — 2008/12/18 @ 21:19
true dat, my friends. I think we’ll have a great Christmas no matter what.
Comment by DaGoddess — 2008/12/18 @ 21:52