Da Goddess

“To see in the darkness, to listen within
To answer in kindness, to ever begin
To ever be gentle, to always be strong
To walk in the wonder, to live in the song” *

I was given a very special gift this past week. I was given the gift of joy, of laughter, of light, of kindness. All came in the form of a wheeled pirate whose good cheer is a great reminder that life is short and LIVING is precious.

When other events sought to bring me down, I wish I could say I didn’t lose my temper, but I did. Yet, the voice of reason came to me and provided me with comfort. The mere thought of this gentle soul with such a bright smile pushed the stormy clouds away and eased the worried creases on my forehead.

There are times in our lives when we’re given a mirror that reflects the worst within us. Then there are times when we’re given a mirror that reflects the very best within. I wish I could say that only the best has been revealed in me, but I’m a work in progress. However, there’s more good here than I thought and it comes bubbling to the surface because my friend has shown me it’s what matters most.

I wish I could bring out the same in others. For now, I take comfort in the fact that this exists within me. It feels good.

I’m not proud of the fact I got mad at both my sisters in one day. I’m not proud of the fact that I cried over their words and mine. I’m not happy with the situation. But I am proud that black, mean, cruel words that could have slipped past my lips did not. Sure, the words I used with my older sister weren’t exactly kind and for that I’m ashamed. They just needed to be finally said. You can’t carry that sort of emotional load forever and ever. So I released it into the wild. For ill or for good, it’s out there and it’s done. And at the end of the day, there was a hug awaiting me, a lovely friend comforting me, and peace began filling my heart once again.

There are many other changes and challenges that await me. I almost feel as if my friend is a reward of some sort for not freaking out over those same changes and challenges; as if my lessons in living are coming to me at a time when I most need them and can immediately put them into practice. I don’t know. But I believe.

Oh, and if you want to feel really good about the world, if you really want to believe…go read Apple Pie and Eternity. The “pirate” is writing a story with a timely lesson therein? Too much of a coincidence, I think. It’s a sign.

* John Denver