2009/05/06

Ambienland

DaGoddess @ 11:54

What a weird place.

The computer became dimensional, the words I typed floated on the skins of animals as they crossed the screen in front of me, and then the dance began. Letters jitterbugged and did the hand jive. I think I saw some doing the Charleston, too. My only frustration came when trying to round them all up and put them back in order. Naughty little letters and words they were.

I finally closed the laptop, put my head to the cool pillow, drifting off into a deep, but equally strange sleep. It was a place where a giant had taken over my son’s old room, where my old boyfriend Mike was winking at me, mouthing that he loved me while getting ready for spy duty with a woman I distrusted and disliked, and for whatever reason, I was living next to a Denny’s where their sign included the word “daily’, but it was misspelled as “daliy”. It all made sense to some extent, except when it came to watching fireworks over Las Vegas from my new room, talking with my new giant friend, making coffee for everyone, and there was a crab boat in my backyard.

When I awoke, the first time, I got up to go to the bathroom, wobbly, but feeling rested. I returned to the coolness of my pillow and promptly fell asleep again. My dream picked up right where it left off, sort of. Suddenly the giant was shrinking, as he cried about being teased by some thoughtless jerk. He turned into my former boyfriend’s nephew, a little boy I truly loved and adored and who is now (in real life) probably graduating from high school if my math is correct.

I can draw some parallels between people and situations, but I won’t because 1) there’s no real good that could come of it, and 2) I’m chalking this dream up to some psychedelic cartoon featuring people I have known and loved and leave it at that.

I slept. I really, really slept. It took a full day to do it, but I did it. And I managed to wake up in time to watch Deadliest Catch, eat a late dinner, and slip off into Ambienland again.

I’ll be visiting there again. Anything to avoid days of wakefulness and unease.

14 Comments

  1. I think you’re okay, because I heard that ‘what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas’. :D

    Last we emailed you were trying to get the chalk to behave… ;) I’m glad you were able to get some real rest.

    Comment by Pam — 2009/05/06 @ 13:27

  2. Chalk? OMG. I don’t even remember that.

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/05/06 @ 13:37

  3. I’m trying to get by on half a tab of the wicked stuff.

    Sometimes it works.

    Comment by CGHill — 2009/05/06 @ 18:42

  4. Good luck!

    I’ve discovered a nasty side effect. I’ve been nauseated all day. It’s either the Ambien or it’s from my sinuses. I’ve had lots of sinus trouble without the upset stomach though. My guess is it’s the pills. We shall see.

    Let me know how it works for you. I tell ya, being able to sleep is nice. Worth just about anything, even upset tummies.

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/05/06 @ 18:49

  5. Nausea I’ve managed to avoid. So far. (looks for wood to knock)

    Comment by CGHill — 2009/05/06 @ 19:42

  6. Here’s knocking on wood that we both get some quality sleep and avoid all the side effects in the future!

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/05/06 @ 19:44

  7. If you get a chance, try some Trazodone. It not only helps me sleep but also is a mild antidepressant. This might just help during the next six months.
    Best regards, Peter.

    Comment by Peter — 2009/05/07 @ 00:15

  8. trazadone and I don’t like each other very well. If I were looking to pull the plug, I’d take it. But not before then

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/05/07 @ 02:22

  9. wishing you some sleep……..

    Comment by vodkamom — 2009/05/07 @ 03:46

  10. As Hamlet burbled, “To sleep – perchance toi dream …” Now we know what he was taking!

    Comment by The Gray Monk — 2009/05/07 @ 04:20

  11. I managed to evoke the same sort of strange dream last night -even finished it after taking Bree out at 3:30am!

    No Ambien needed; all it took was the butt off the Dove Easter bunny. Had to get rid of that thing, and eating is the only way… ;)

    Comment by Pam — 2009/05/07 @ 06:44

  12. you could have mailed me the ass, Pam

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/05/07 @ 08:21

  13. That’s some crazy stuff. Someone I know said she will binge eat when she’s taken it, like she’s on autopilot. I thought she was just making excuses for poor choices, but then I read news stories about the odd things people have done while under the influence of this drug. Sounds like a real trip!

    Comment by GW — 2009/05/07 @ 14:25

  14. Very trippy stuff, but it does the trick

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/05/07 @ 14:56

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