February 01, 2003
I Know What I Want
I've done a lot of thinking. A LOT. And, I know what I really want.
It's not as though I can't live alone. I can. I have. But, that's not really how I like or want things to be in my life.
I want to have that special someone in my life. The person who wakes up in the morning, looks at me while I'm sleeping. He thinks I'm beautiful. He'll take a picture of me. I'll look at that photo sometime and see what he sees. I'll see the love he feels for me in the happiness on my face.
I know that my heart is beautiful. I know that my mind is as well. I know that others see that, too. But, that's where it usually ends. The person that they know in mind and heart doesn't match up with the body and face. Somehow, they can't see beyond that. They can't allow themselves to love the essence of who I am enough to be by my side always. The inside me. The one that they admire and find so amazing. That's not enough.
I want someone who knows my heart and my mind well enough to see that in my eyes and my smile. I want them to look at me, all of me, and accept all of me as beautiful.
I want someone who will stand with me, against the world, if need be. Someone who will wipe away the tears when I'm hurting. Tell off the people who hurt me. Someone who will be my staunchest supporter in times of trouble. Because, because. Because they see all of me as beautiful.
I want to be loved. Completely and unabashedly. Openly and honestly. In all situations.
Why is that so hard to find?
I know that I would gladly give the same love and support to someone else if given the chance.
There are possibilities. Yes. There are. But, am I patient enough to let this just happen?
Posted by DaGoddess at February 1, 2003 12:07 AM