The Day After the Day After
I had a long night of thinking, of remembering. I dozed off a couple times, but really never slept. My stomach was not having it.
With inflammatory bowel disease you can never predict when your stomach is going to go rogue one you. And you can’t predict how long it’ll last. There are times when I’ll go months without a flare up and then have a bad day. Or maybe I’ll have a horrible couple of weeks followed by a day of relief, quickly followed by a month of horror. It’s really that crazy.
Were I insured or on Medicaid, I’d have tests to see if I’ve ramped up to ulcerative colitis. But I’m still waiting to find out if I’ve been approved.
Anyhow, stress can be a trigger for flare ups and I’d say death of a loved one counts as stress. It took a day or two to smack me upside the head, but it has most definitely done that now.
J cleaned Dad’s house yesterday before C even got there. I’d slept through the day and missed everything. Today, I guess we’re going over to sort through stuff? I’m not quite sure. I know C has been good about getting rid of Dad’s clothes over the past year as he’s worn out stuff or lost too much weight to wear it. We’ll have to get the rest of his clothes sorted and donated this week, I think. Better to do it now instead of waiting and letting grief smash into us again later.
Other notes:
I’m an idiot! I packed enough underwear for every day of an Everest expedition but failed to pack sleep pants.
I actually posted on Facebook yesterday after 7 months. I’d almost like to delete my account there, but a great portion of friends on there I don’t contact any other way. What to do, what to do…
One foot in front of the other is basically the order of the day. You can’t think too much; impossible at this point… or can’t help but think too much… so one… two… three…
I deactivated my FB account two weeks ago; just felt like too much of a stalker… but I miss keeping up with people. No contact with them now. It’s only a matter of time before I go back.
Hang in there! I’m sending prayers and positive vibes!
Comment by pam — 2018/05/10 @ 07:13
{{{hugs}}}
Comment by Da Goddess — 2018/05/10 @ 13:28