2009/04/17

There

DaGoddess @ 10:01

Five years ago, and some change, I was declared the of There*.

Lately I’ve had the chance to do some navel gazing and I have to admit that the description is apt.

I’ve learned, the hard way of course, that I don’t want to be Here, I want to be There. I always want to be There. Most of us want to be There. As if there’s something inherently wrong with where we actually are.

I think it’s easy to lose sight of the journey, the process, the experience of it all. Sure, who doesn’t want to fast forward through the scary or the gory parts? Who doesn’t want to avoid the difficult patches? But in order to get There you have to start from Here. And sometimes, if you’re really lucky, you discover There is a lot closer than you thought; it turns out you were looking at the map upside down!

I know I’m not There yet, but I have to remember that the journey will take as long as it takes. There’s no fast forward button on life. There’s no way to skip chapters. And there just isn’t any way to avoid some of the pitfalls. In other words, I better embrace the Grace within and have a little Faith — not just in God, but in myself and in other people. I’ll get There when I get There. No amount of running, stumbling, or thumbin’ a ride is going to get me There any sooner.

* Okay, that There was different than the There here, but still…

2 Comments

  1. I would have liked a fast forward button for my first marriage. ;)

    Many times in life I’ve been content and happy to be Here. Not that I had a lot -or any- money, but I’m just one of those folks.

    A psychiatrist might say that I’m lazy. Or that my parents didn’t raise me to want more or that I have a conservative’s limbic brain. Being a simple girl has saved me much but I suspect in the long run it’s cost more in terms of living life.

    Who the heck got all introspective on a Friday??
    :may:

    Comment by Pam — 2009/04/17 @ 13:26

  2. I did. Sorry.

    it’s not about wanting this or that, but more of a case of knowing my destiny lies elsewhere and sometimes wanting to rush to that place. You can’t rush what you can’t rush. I forget that.

    Comment by DaGoddess — 2009/04/17 @ 14:34

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